When you can't find outside of you, in your physical/material world, a motive to put a smile in your heart that will pour into your face and shine through your eyes, letting yourself to crawl in a life that doesn't bring to you that necessary spark to light your heart, and you let this going on and on, the result will go deeper than what you can imagine, in special if you have no sense in how this can, not just influence you in a physical, mental and physiological way, but also spiritually.
We all have a purpose in our physical existence. We didn't come here just to wander around and spend this physical existence to spend our days looking to the side.
There are learnings that goes beyond what society can offer you, and you can only learn this learning’s when open to something that transcends you, and only by listening to your heart can you be led to pursue a path that will show you something way bigger than life itself, which to pursue, you need to value the life that was given to you. Self love is the key. If you haven't self love, you will tend to make use of "tools", and when life takes from you those tools to shake you up, you will feel like being unable to strive to keep a life in which "you" are the reason to keep going.
You need to learn to love and accept yourself in the exact way you are, without the need to depend on someone else to show you love and acceptance. No one can find true love and acceptance when their own self love is conditioned by the love and acceptance others can show to them. As long as we are incapable to love and accept ourselves, those in our lives will love us with the same conditions.
We know we are conditioned when those in our life move away from us and we find ourselves struggling with the fact of being alone, like if our worth could only exist dependent on the existence of someone else in our life to show us what we need. Being like this, when we see ourselves alone we will tend to quickly look to find a substitute to love us. But guess what... whoever comes to your life next, can only show you what you can see in yourself, because unless you can see and identify your own worth by your own means, others can only serve you as mirrors, through which you will see using your own lens.
You are intended to be whole by yourself. Your wholeness is not dependent in having someone else by your side. Yes, life is way better when you can share your values and happiness with someone else. But may that person be, the one that respects and values you for who you are, because you can also respect and value yourself, and not because, you need someone to appreciate you. Someone able to look deep in your eyes, even if by doing it they stare to their own shadow and light, and without being afraid of what they see, but able to recognize and accept that you are just an extension of them. Someone capable to self love and acceptance will also love you and accept you, not for what you can give to them, but for what both can share to each other. It is not about what you can take, is about what you can add. That shows self love, acceptance and recognition of their worth as a person and personal values.
Look to what brings you joy. Even if you have to spend most of your day doing something that takes from you, find out something to do at the end of the day, or at least one or two times a week, that may bring a sense of spark of light reborn in your heart, so you can find the strength to face depression. Find your purpose. Learn your lessons. And most of all, love yourself. Self love is the armor to protect you against depression. Even if depression strikes you, not being dependent on others love and acceptance, but having your own fountain of light to pouring by itself without being conditioned, you will find easier to transpose the barriers that depression lifts around you, that will also facilitates to bring to your life those that will find enjoyable and gratification for having you in their life.
Whoever you may be, depression doesn't choose social classes, it can knock on anyone's door.
Don't exclude medical help, because if the depression hits you strong and deep, those who love you won't be able to help you no matter how hard they try, your receptive state will be so closed, that no help will reach you where it is most needed. Even so, you will kept consciousness and will be able to see they are trying to help, but not being able to let them in, this will increase your depressive state. Medical medicine will act on your cognitive and physiological state, opening your receptiveness to the help you need to find a way out from depression.
I had my share of depression that has hit me strong and ugly two years ago. I've seen my daughter trying to help me and falling apart when realizing she couldn't help me, and that increased even more my state of depression. I came to a point that thoughts of suicide were being a constant. And not even my spiritual knowledge served me to be able to get out of the depression. I had let the depression to enclosed me, and ended so tied up, that all my knowledge seemed to sort no effect when I was not even able to put in practice what I knew could set me free, all because I was not finding within me the right medicine. Self love!
I never looked for medical help, because for me I knew it wouldn’t work. I knew well what I needed but finding hard to bring it out, until a very special friend, finding out by intuition that I needed help, contacted me, pulling me out from the powerless state that I was in.
It happens I was open to his love because we have met to resolve a involving third party situation from a past life, something that had to do with forgiveness and compassion that we both needed to give to that third being.
Although we were not romantically involved, it was more a kind of unconditional love, our strong spiritual connection has able him to enter in my dark chambers to bring me to a lighter place, from which I was able to start working on self love, not being so tied up to those shadows that were encircle me. I will always be grateful for such a beautiful and benevolent being as he is, that has given from himself without taking anything in return.
Each one of us is different in the way we see, in the way we are capable to feel and even in the way we understand things. That's because we tend to feel and see through the lens we have acquired in our circumstances of life, in which our personality was molded and conditioned. But none the less, there is one thing that we all have in common. We all need to have it, no matters who we are and no matter from where we are coming from. The right amount of self love. That's our biggest defense weapon against depression. It is from where we gain our personal power, our charisma and from where the light of our inner being pours out.
Be responsible for your own life. Be responsible for your own self love and value. Find what brings you joy and stick on it. Look for what gives you a sense of feeling "alive" and embrace it with gratitude.
Whoever you are, your life matters!
